But I keep throwing electric fences around my heart when someone’s about to get closer to me. I really mean it. If you try to get any closer to me, I will hurt you with angry words and mean eyes… Because I don’t want anyone to see my scared, naked self. My scars haven’t healed yet. Love brings up my old wounds and insecurities.
We had a fun day today, and all I could do at the end of the day was get angry at myself for allowing myself to get closer to someone. I couldn’t accept the loving actions, words, or hugs. I was stupidly and unexpectedly angry and distant.
I’m sorry to me. I don’t think I’ll ever let myself love freely. I just want to be alone and stay away